Princesses aren't Perfect.

Isn't it strange that the happy outgoing folk are also broken on the inside? It's like we put up this facade of HOW people see us and HOW people have SEEN us, that we HAVE to be happy or joyful to show that we're not broken. We're broken in sin but not that bad? But it's because we have this perspective of how people view us that we can't show that we are truly broken. How do we become vulnerable to those that have never seen us vulnerable besides best friends and God himself? [I understand we all have struggles. We all deal with them differently. Some are stronger than others, some don't even know they are struggling, some have a great community to run to to lift them up]   I'm just saying the ones who show they are happy, rarely get questioned a genuine "How are you?" because when we see them we don't think it's necessary. But we all need to worry about each other, show our love by understanding each others lives. When listening to ot...

JAESON MAE'S LATEST BLOG: (thought everyone should check it out)  http://jaesonma.com/365-days-of-love-day-284-the-5-pillars-of-manhood-how-men-should-love-respect-women/ In our day an age most men are not men, they are boys. Most guys still want to marry their mom, have a women serve and take care of them, are not willing to take initiative or commit in a relationship, most men are still living in fear, not pursuing their callings by settling for “safe” because its easy Women don’t want to marry boys, they want to marry men. Women don’t want boys they have to put up with, clean up after and take care of, they want to be lead, pursued and taken on an exciting life adventure. If you go to most of the churches in the Western world today, you will find that there are very few spiritual men, instead there are many spiritual women. It’s disappointing, but I hear it from women of faith all the time, “Pastor Jaeson, where are the godly men?” The 5 Pillars of Manhood… 1. Lea...

DEFINE:  Beauty: the qualities that give pleasure to the senses Beautiful: delighting the senses or exciting intellectual or emotional admiration The world has taken beauty and brought it down to something that is not too significant. Beauty is now so cheap and we're losing the essence of it's form and spirit.  Some thoughts from reading Captivating : Beauty is the essence of God . You can see it through nature . It's the true nature that is filled with the glory of God. It's through the flowers, mountains, gardens, waterfalls, clouds, Summer, and Spring. Beauty surrounds us and it's just primarily beautiful. "Which is to say, beauty is in and of itself a great and glorious good, something we need in large and daily doses." -- Captivating God's creation of Eve is pure beauty, representation of all women. She's is filled with physical and spiritual beauty. Women are meant to be beautiful. [Look at the art work in the museum, filled with...

Responses and encouragement to True Impurity to reach TRUE PURITY: Hopefully this can encourage you as much as it has it encouraged me. (one response from a female and 2 from the males side) Female: I hope and pray that you will continue to feel FORGIVEN for your mistakes and actions in the past because our God is a good. He loves us enough to send His own Son down to die for us mere sinners. Enough to forgive us with His grace and mercy and to continue to overflow our cups with His love. Remember that you are a new creation in Him and that you're made new in His image. The old has gone, the new has come . You are indeed beautiful, blessed, and forgiven. Let the guilt and shame never separate you from our God but to bring you closer to His glory through your serving heart. Let His love fill you up and overflow you as a complete woman who is not needy and dependent on men and their affections. Let God break you free from the bandages of lust. I think first things first is to...

I am reading through I Kissed Dating Goodbye and here are my outrageous thoughts/feelings/convictions: (Please beware these are true, honest feelings, read at your own risk in judgement) It brings up many thoughts and ideas I feel I should have been smart enough to decide on my own. I should have been more wise with the bible to figure how I am suppose to act. After reading, I feel I definitely need to say Goodbye to dating and focus on spending my whole life with God. And spending time with His word and His Spirit. I want to say Goodbye so I can be able to serve Him and do more for Him rather than for myself. I want to say Goodbye so that I can be able to continue growing with Him. I want to say Goodbye so that I can continue to learn everything about Him and to learn of where His plan for me is. I want to say Goodbye to all of it, so that I can be pure in the Spirit. And pure in my body when it comes to loving God and one day to love my husband. I need to make sure I know the true ...

To GO: To GO out and do God's Will. To GO out and spread the word of the Good News, share the Gospel. To GO out and spread the love, peace, and hope that God has freely given us. To GO and do miraculous things. But to think to actually GO... What comes to mind? What comes to my mind: "Lord, I want to GO, I want to do exactly what You have planned for me, but right now I need to finish my 5th year of school. Then I promise I'll surrender to You everything that I have." But I quickly realize this should NOT be my thought at all. Who am I to say, "NO GOD, I'm not ready for this YET ." When will I be ready? Tomorrow, next year, 5 years? How will you ever know you're ready until you do it? How can you ever question or doubt God? He's omnipotent, omnipresent, and omniscient, our Creator, our Lord, our Father. Why doubt? When it's trust - He'll provide, trust - He'll take care of you, trust - He knows what's best for you. You don'...

This is probably one of the most difficult to write. Throughout the bible, it shares a story of loving those who we just absolutely hate. It's to love those who have done us wrong. It's to love those who have treated us with little respect. It's to love those who are the utmost evil. It's to love those, those people that as human beings we just cannot love. When we love them, we show we have forgiven them, but as us -- being part of this world, are we ready for that? "Jesus is calling us to be willing to suffer anything and forsake everything for the sake of the Gospel. His call is to love those who have cheated us in business; those who have spread nasty rumors about us ; those who would kill us if they could; those who disagree with us politically, practically, and fundamentally. His call is to consider everything a loss for His sake. His call is for total surrender. He calls us to give up all that we have to give even to the point of offering up our lives as a ...

Thank you for reading my blog. I appreciate all the words of encouragement. I didn't think anyone would read this or even take out the time to. So again thank you! Diverse: many and different; or distinctly dissimilar or unlike Serving God and living faithfully can become a constant guilt trip of "trying harder" and "doing better next time." As I'm starting to get back into living a life that is worthy of God rather than living a comfortable life, I've come to realize that people I've surrounded myself with are so much more "GODLY" than I. I love hearing stories and I'm a great listener, supporter, and encourager. But at the same time I'm inspired to do more. I'm at a point in life where "DO MORE" is my new slogan. To do more for God, do more of my friends, do more for my family, my job, school, church, and volleyball. There may be a quick feeling of being blue because my life for God is not as theirs. BUT! A fr...

Trust has been a big lesson for every day life. It's a lesson to learn with your relationships with loved ones, friends, new friends, work, even with God and everything else. DEFINITION Trust: 1. Firm reliance on the integrity, ability, or character of a person or thing. Trust has been reoccurring over and over today. August 31, 2010. My devotion was about trust. How to truly trust in the Lord with your life, your plans, and your finances. To put your trust, your faith in Him that He will provide for you with everything you need. He will strip you of all the worldly treasure you hold onto so dearly. Bottom line, give Him faith, being UNCOMFORTABLE and many blessings will come. Next, TRUST came up again. When my cousin passed away about a year ago, it hit me and it hit me hard. The doctor that prescribed him the drugs not only caused overdose to my cousin but to 6 other people. We put his life in her hands, and she had to mess that up because we trusted her. She is now being inve...

It's been a long time since I've written here. I've been writing secretly because I wasn't able to tell the whole world how I was feeling besides ONE person. There are many changes that have recently been happening in my life. Many of the changes are for the better for the world as well as for myself. God has definitely begun the transformation of my heart to be open to Him, to serve Him, to be obedient to Him. He's planted a seed in me to be more loving, caring, filled with kindness and compassion. My heart is so fired up for God and what He has planned for me this future. I look forward to each day to see how He will continue to teach me His word, and what is the next mission for me? I pray that God continues to shed His Light on each one of us. He has amazing plans for each one of us to share the Gospel and do His will. I'm looking forward for us to capture the true meaning of the Holy Spirit and prepare for it to work in me and in you. He is our Almighty ...

It's a rough patch, we'll get through it But we keep going down like a bottomless pit The pain worsens as the days go by Sometimes I find myself asking, "God, why?" When will this hurt end? When are we going around the bend? When is it morning, when is it light? It just feels like a long cold night It'll come after the light of the moon. The will sun shine very soon At the end of the path will be a beautiful done But til that day comes I'll be waiting for the sun.

I know I shouldn't rub this in or anything.. But without my family, I don't know where I would be right now. My mom, dad, and brother.. we're all so close. We laugh together all the time, we make fun of each other always, we're so close it's like PDA where ever we go. We LOVE each other. Then you throw my cousins, aunts, and uncles in to the mix. And it's a loving MADHOUSE. Just check out my FACEBOOK video -- "I like to make-out with my family" My new camera.. My new pictures.. don't judge the upcoming family photographer, thanks. Without my family, the love, the care, the fun.. I'd be a mess. My life wouldn't be put together nor as composed. FOR ME, without my family.. I feel like I am nothing.

Love sometimes need to be extravagant. To go all out. It sometimes needs to set aside the technicalities and just bless because it wants to.. How about putting your heart into it, how about adopting a new level of love that actually wants to fulfill every dream and desire you possibly can. You thought life was over when a certain setback took all the wind out of your sails. You broke down and cried out to Him. You prayed like you'd never prayed before. And though it wasn't easy getting back up and walking on, you somehow survived. He met you with His promised peach "which surpasses all comprehension" (Philippians 4:7) and kept you on your feet. [Your love may really want your time. She may really want your attention. She may really want to be treated like a lady, to know that her husband considers her his greatest treasure. She may really want to see in your eyes a love that chooses to be there no matter what. HE may want your respect. He may really want you to acknow...

How often do you say you're a Christian? How often do you turn to God through problems? How often do you give up to God your finances? How often do you give your problems to him (sex, drugs, smoking, pornography, etc) How often do you give your attitude to him (temper, pride, jealous, selfish, etc) How often do you pray? How often do you praise Him? How often do you thank Him? How often do you read the bible? How often do you honor? How often do you love your enemies? How often do you love? How often do you share your experiences of God with others? How often do you show that you're a follower to Jesus? How often do you? I'm not a saint, I probably say I do those not too often at all. It sucks to say it, but you need to recognize it first, you need to confess, you need to repent, you need forgiveness from HIM.

From the moment you unpack for your honeymoon, the real process of unpacking one another, unpleasantly discovering how sinful and self each of you could be. Pretty soon your mate started to slip off your pedestal, and you off of theirs. The forced closeness of marriage began stripping away your public facades, exposing your private problems and secret habits. Welcome to fallen humanity. Love reminds you that your relationship is too valuable to allow it to self-destruct and that your life for your spouse is more important than whatever you're fighting about. "ME" Boundaries are rules you personally practice on your own. 1. I will listen first before speaking. "everyone must be quick to hear, slow to speak, and slow to anger" James 1:19 2. I will deal with my own issues up-front "why do you look at the speck that is in your brother's eye, but do not notice the log that is in your own eye" (Matthew 7:3) 3. I will speak gently and keep my voice down. ...

If twitter was unlimited, just for today, this is what it would say: I'm 21, and hate my job of 3 years. 2009 and this current year is teaching me patience, guess what, I failed again today. Took me til day 4 with this job that I hate it again. I know I'm upset when I want to complain and make excuses. I hate people that complain, I hate people that make excuses. But now I want to. Wednesday: I worked late, but had to prepare for my presentation and for school. So, instead stayed up late to work on everything. Thursday: School, then work right after, and ditched CLASS to stay at work. Friday: Worked late again, and didn't make it to my friend's going away party, I was way too tired (which was why I couldn't go to the Book Club Meeting, thank goodness they changed that til next week, they must love me) Saturday: Worked late again, can't take a nap, canceled going to the bridal expo with Thuy, can't plan my lesson for high school ministry (sorry guys, I've...

It's been too long, I've kept more of a private journal, because lately my life has been more secret, more hiding.. I haven't really told anyone about anything, when people ask how I am? I like to avoid the question and turn it so that the people just talk about themselves and I'll just listen. Sometimes lately though I won't even listen anymore, it's just like I don't care about my life, nor do I care about the life of others. I want to.. But right now, my life and my priorities are the most important, I can say that since the new year started, I've complete lost who I am, what I'm all about. It's part of growing up. I'm entering into my 2nd to last year of school, and this is when you're suppose to step it up a notch but I'm slowing down. This is the year were there are just too many close deaths to count and I'm emotional not stable anymore. It's the time were this recession is hitting home, and hitting home hard. It's ...

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