Princesses aren't Perfect.

You come at the end of the week. You slowly seep within me each day. You are not something that happens just once. You take over my body day after day. You beat me up. You are something I try to hide. You are something that makes me fake that smile. You are what I want to beat. You are real. Tired. I'm not one to complain. Or wait I am? Work drains. Period. Being on the constant go. I love my parents to death but they've been on my butt more than ever. Today has just been one of the longest days of my life. To the point I can actually say I just need ME time. Getting away from this life and just be one with myself, and do my dumb things. Relaxing things. ME things. I need to disappear within the night. I need to get lost in the music. I need sleep. It's the feeling of knowing that someone cares about you. You're the feeling that I know will always care. It's the feeling of knowing that someone will always be there no matter what. You're the feeling that will nev...

just some things I wanted to share that I got out of my ROCKharbor training tonight. William Carey once said... "Attempt great thing for God. Expect great things from God." People on a mission, and joining the Lord in His work. When we put ourselves in a place for the Lord to work through us, please are blessed, we are changed, the kingdom of Heaven advances and God smiles. "May He equip you with all you need for doing His will. May He product in you, through the power of Jesus Christ, every good thing that is pleasing to Him." Hebrews 13:2 WHY WE GO To meet both physical and spiritual needs For the sake of the lost "Then Jesus came to them and said, "All authority in heaven and on earth has been given to me. Therefore go and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit, and teaching them to obey everything I have commanded you. And surely I am with you always, to the very end of the age....

He's Just Not That Into You. Pretty straight forward, if a guys likes you, he'll do whatever he can to get to know you better. He'll call you. He'll ask you out. He'll give you the attention you deserve. And if a guy doesn't, but you like him. He ain't worth it. You need to be treated like the princess you are. SO MOVE ON, you're better than that. Do you really want a guy who never calls you, cheats on you, forgets about you, and makes excuses? I didn't think so. Now. Guys seriously. We need a book that says. UHH, She's Just Not That Into You. I mean, yeah, a guy likes a girl and he'll do whatever it takes. But sometimes they just need to get the clue, DUDE WE'RE NOT THAT INTO YOU. Take a hint and move on. Just as simple, when a girl is into you she'll give you the attention as well. She's hint ideas, and things to you often. She'll give you a different attention and conversation than she has with other guys. BUT if she's ...

"We have become a sloppy bunch of people. We say things we don't mean. We make promises we don't keep. 'I'll call you.' 'Let's get together.' We know we won't. On the Human Interaction Stock Exchange, our words have lost almost all their value. And the spiral continues, as we now don't even expect people to keep their word; in face we might even be embarrassed to point out to the dirty liar that they never did what they said they'd do. So if a guy you're daring doesn't call when he says he's going to, why should that be such a big deal? Because you should be dating a man who's at least as good as his word."

I can take out this time to list the billion things I have to do. But it's not that, that is bothering me. It's the emotions that I have that come along with it. It's people not caring as much because we have our own thing to do, or our own problems. We're trying to beat you in how busy we are that we forget to listen. It takes not listening for someone to disappear. It takes not listening for someone to take their life. It takes not listening for you to regret, that you should have been there to lend a simple ear. My emotions are just everywhere, I can't even grasp it. My emotions with my whole family is most recent. There is so much going on in the family that it's hard to take in all at once. You would never want to see your family struggle. You never want to see your family sad, upset, and frustrated. [He's challenging my patience.] Money - RockHarbor put some heavy crap on me with last's night sermon. School - I'm still pushing through and tryin...

Bachelor. Read about it, and you'll know. It's all over the media. Youtube it. Let's just say this Jason guy just proved why women hate men so much. I may be bias because I do relate to the other girl (Melissa) a lot more. - Always being the dumpee. - Having a guy leave, and find love in someone else so quickly. It's either I have a problem, or the guys I am dating have a problem. But follow your heart, I guess whatever.. Exes. You can't be friends with them. Don't try it. Don't talk about. Just avoid it all. Don't be the bigger person. Old emotions of either love, or hatred always comes back and it's not worth it. It ain't going to work if it wasn't completely mutual. But when is it ever? I just wish others would understand how I feel and would just leave me alone. Jealous. I'm a jealous type. I realized that. But not to the point where I am crazy. I won't tell the other person. I'll just let it dwell in me. Try to forget it, get...

So it's all over the place. I'm an emotional mess. I'm having a nervous breakdown. From happiness, then in a matter of seconds, I'm crying my eyes out. I'm in complete shock. I'm in denial. I want to thank everyone that were there for me. If you sent me a text, if you wanted to lend an ear. Or if you called me just to talk for a little while. Or if I canceled plans with you, I am so thankful for your understanding. I know people have worse problems, and have other things they have to deal with. And what I am going through just isn't as bad. But it's bad to me.. I can't go through this again. the last one was so hard. When life is hard it gets really hard. It's hits me hard. i fall hard. i take everything to heart.