Princesses aren't Perfect.

Emotions get pushed back inside The frustrations, the anger The rudeness, the irritation The hurt, the mistakes, the wrong are all to hide Pushed to a place unknown As the phone hangs up The emotions take over her body Coming out through tears The tears, fall down so slowly down her face They fall onto the pillow case They just dry in place Every night, many nights The tears of emotion destroy the frustration The tears of emotion rids the irritation The tears of emotion rids the negativity of the day The tears of emotion wipes the slate clean To start... To start a new day, free of emotions.

It's the way he strokes my hair It's the way he wipe my tears It's the way he looks deep in my eyes It's the way he wraps his arms around me It's the way he touches my heart When he wants to kiss me When he cares for me When he wants to know me When he warms me When he loves me..

You come at the end of the week. You slowly seep within me each day. You are not something that happens just once. You take over my body day after day. You beat me up. You are something I try to hide. You are something that makes me fake that smile. You are what I want to beat. You are real. Tired. I'm not one to complain. Or wait I am? Work drains. Period. Being on the constant go. I love my parents to death but they've been on my butt more than ever. Today has just been one of the longest days of my life. To the point I can actually say I just need ME time. Getting away from this life and just be one with myself, and do my dumb things. Relaxing things. ME things. I need to disappear within the night. I need to get lost in the music. I need sleep. It's the feeling of knowing that someone cares about you. You're the feeling that I know will always care. It's the feeling of knowing that someone will always be there no matter what. You're the feeling that will nev...

just some things I wanted to share that I got out of my ROCKharbor training tonight. William Carey once said... "Attempt great thing for God. Expect great things from God." People on a mission, and joining the Lord in His work. When we put ourselves in a place for the Lord to work through us, please are blessed, we are changed, the kingdom of Heaven advances and God smiles. "May He equip you with all you need for doing His will. May He product in you, through the power of Jesus Christ, every good thing that is pleasing to Him." Hebrews 13:2 WHY WE GO To meet both physical and spiritual needs For the sake of the lost "Then Jesus came to them and said, "All authority in heaven and on earth has been given to me. Therefore go and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit, and teaching them to obey everything I have commanded you. And surely I am with you always, to the very end of the age....

He's Just Not That Into You. Pretty straight forward, if a guys likes you, he'll do whatever he can to get to know you better. He'll call you. He'll ask you out. He'll give you the attention you deserve. And if a guy doesn't, but you like him. He ain't worth it. You need to be treated like the princess you are. SO MOVE ON, you're better than that. Do you really want a guy who never calls you, cheats on you, forgets about you, and makes excuses? I didn't think so. Now. Guys seriously. We need a book that says. UHH, She's Just Not That Into You. I mean, yeah, a guy likes a girl and he'll do whatever it takes. But sometimes they just need to get the clue, DUDE WE'RE NOT THAT INTO YOU. Take a hint and move on. Just as simple, when a girl is into you she'll give you the attention as well. She's hint ideas, and things to you often. She'll give you a different attention and conversation than she has with other guys. BUT if she's ...

"We have become a sloppy bunch of people. We say things we don't mean. We make promises we don't keep. 'I'll call you.' 'Let's get together.' We know we won't. On the Human Interaction Stock Exchange, our words have lost almost all their value. And the spiral continues, as we now don't even expect people to keep their word; in face we might even be embarrassed to point out to the dirty liar that they never did what they said they'd do. So if a guy you're daring doesn't call when he says he's going to, why should that be such a big deal? Because you should be dating a man who's at least as good as his word."

I can take out this time to list the billion things I have to do. But it's not that, that is bothering me. It's the emotions that I have that come along with it. It's people not caring as much because we have our own thing to do, or our own problems. We're trying to beat you in how busy we are that we forget to listen. It takes not listening for someone to disappear. It takes not listening for someone to take their life. It takes not listening for you to regret, that you should have been there to lend a simple ear. My emotions are just everywhere, I can't even grasp it. My emotions with my whole family is most recent. There is so much going on in the family that it's hard to take in all at once. You would never want to see your family struggle. You never want to see your family sad, upset, and frustrated. [He's challenging my patience.] Money - RockHarbor put some heavy crap on me with last's night sermon. School - I'm still pushing through and tryin...

Bachelor. Read about it, and you'll know. It's all over the media. Youtube it. Let's just say this Jason guy just proved why women hate men so much. I may be bias because I do relate to the other girl (Melissa) a lot more. - Always being the dumpee. - Having a guy leave, and find love in someone else so quickly. It's either I have a problem, or the guys I am dating have a problem. But follow your heart, I guess whatever.. Exes. You can't be friends with them. Don't try it. Don't talk about. Just avoid it all. Don't be the bigger person. Old emotions of either love, or hatred always comes back and it's not worth it. It ain't going to work if it wasn't completely mutual. But when is it ever? I just wish others would understand how I feel and would just leave me alone. Jealous. I'm a jealous type. I realized that. But not to the point where I am crazy. I won't tell the other person. I'll just let it dwell in me. Try to forget it, get...

So it's all over the place. I'm an emotional mess. I'm having a nervous breakdown. From happiness, then in a matter of seconds, I'm crying my eyes out. I'm in complete shock. I'm in denial. I want to thank everyone that were there for me. If you sent me a text, if you wanted to lend an ear. Or if you called me just to talk for a little while. Or if I canceled plans with you, I am so thankful for your understanding. I know people have worse problems, and have other things they have to deal with. And what I am going through just isn't as bad. But it's bad to me.. I can't go through this again. the last one was so hard. When life is hard it gets really hard. It's hits me hard. i fall hard. i take everything to heart.

I'm on a mission to paying it forward in happiness. Simple gestures that can make my friends, and families' day. Simple gestures that can make a stranger's day. A simple smile to brighten someone's heart. This morning I left notes to my brother, dad, and mom wishing them a great day. Note to my mom: GOOD MORNING MOMMA! HOPE YOU HAVE A GREAT DAY AT WORK She replies with this: YOU KNOW HOW TO MAKE MY DAY. YOU READ MY MIND. My first client at work, I hate working on her. Love, mom. This then made my day knowing I could make someone else a little happier. So take the time to send a simple text to an old friend. Always helpful to make them smile and know you still remember them after all this time. So take that time to hold that door open. So take the time to pick up litter on the street. Take that time to help an old lady cross the street. Take the time to listen to your friends. Take the time to let someone else go in front of you in line. Start a conversation with a stra...

Confusing guys. Question: What is the most confusing thing about a guy? #2 answer: Guys don't know how to express their feelings. (Lack of communication) They also act one way and then the next minute they act a different way. NUMBER 1 answer : Guys will flirt with a girl and things will be going great and then all of a sudden you find out that he has a girlfriend... Interesting how often this happens. Let's elaborate. The reason why I write about this is because I've been watching A LOT of TV shows, reality and scripted whatever. I've been listening to my friend's lives and looking back on my own life, guys flirt flirt flirt with us, women, A LOT and it's the same situation. Situation: Two people met. Two people flirt. Feelings get involved. BAM! The guy has a girlfriend. Conclusion: [Against the girls] We're blinded by love, lust, and infatuation. We take these simple gestures of niceness and sweetness to the extreme and automatically think the guy is i...

Facts you probably don't know about me! If you do know then you know me more than well I like to chew on hard candies. I bite my straws like crazy. I watch a lot DVDs at night to help me fall asleep. (I have all the seasons to Scrubs, How I Met Your Mother, The Office, Sex and the City, and the 1st season of Full House, and 4 seasons of 90210). I laugh at everything and anything. I am afraid of being in the dark. I have very small ears. I sometimes snort when I laugh too hard. RARELY HAPPENS I can't drink&walk at the same time. I don't think before speaking. I LOVE cucumbers. Sometimes I can get too excited while talking, it'll show through my face expressions. I am pretty clean and organized with everything BUT my room. When I get excited about something I will dance, jump for joy, scream, laugh, or run around like a mad woman. I will go above and beyond for your birthday. Like buy tickets to a concert, or pay for part of a ticket to NY, tickets to Broadway, or spe...

2oo8 gave me great memories, new friends, new relationships, and helped me establish who I really am. 2009 you have a lot of work to do to beat a great year of 2008. As I was counting down to the last seconds of 2008 to enter into 2009. My heart was beating so fast. I wasn't ready to go into 2009 yet. I wanted to stop time. I celebrated the New Year at a friend's family dance party. It was so fricking fun! Played with the kiddies as usual. ('Of course,' you say, if you really know me) But it made me miss my family so much. So I called them, I got really emotional. This really showed me how much I missed and loved my family to death. This whole trip to NY was crazy. It was so fun, different, and effing awesome! Travel was probably the hardest to deal with. But spending time with my friends was the best. The 4 days I was in NY, I spent a lot of time with just myself and NEW YORK To think of my future. My past. And figure out who I am really am. I realized how much I love...